still can make out pieces with the opening sewed shut yeah parts of me are slowing down and time is speeding up spiders crawling everywhere infected Japanese you can tell all your friends you’re just a tourist but you can’t understand what they’ve planned until you try to leave feels like i've been here before feels like i've been here before feels like i've been here before feels like i've been here before well i don't know anymore and i don't care anymore feels like i've been here before feels like i've been here before feels like i've been here before feels like i've been here before feels like i've been here before cold and black and infinite with nothing left to lose glassy bending flexible if you try to keep the flies away the makeup hides the bruise why are you here right now? i don't think you're supposed to be reading this her branches are the bones that break become a perfect line and no he won’t be just a man who’s Sometimes he won't be just a man who's Sometimes feels like i've been here before well i don't know anymore and i don't care anymore i think i recognize yes i have been here before yes i have been here before yes i have been here before yes i have been here before yeah i don't care anymore yeah don’t give a fuck anymore and i don't care anymore one way or another but the way things have a way finding order almost everything of you yes i have been here before yes i guess thought i was my proven false in false in one all of you but the way actual events a way of finding mattered what i thought of finding order almost of you i guess have a way of comfort in the past events but the way like I’ve been here the past not the but the way i of Im rotting so slowly that it's Like pulling teeth, so slowly that it's I know I am wire but the wires get ripped from from the inside out especially her so much eye holes cant stop itching i see Im doing bad I don’t care please go away from here please all of you i past not the actual like I’ve been here in one way or myself has proven false guess things have please go please please please yes i have been here before yes i have been here b
yes, everyone seems to be asleep hey look, you didn't even notice you couldn't eventell just when it started happ ening maybe just as well afterall everything is gettingunfamiliarnow trajectory in decline and webecome obsolete a frame ata time i'm locked inside here i have to stay with people who aren't here all the way pictures and faces on display people who aren't here all the way And you didn't even notice You didn't even notice You didn't even notice You didn't even notice You didn't even notice You didn't even notice You didn't even notice You didn't even notice You didn't even notice (you were missing) [left channel] dear world, i can hardly recognize you anymore and yet i remain certain thereis an answerin you i feel like i have lived solong sometimes run out of things to try to do i can't concentrate mywayout what about..? [right channel] I am leaving because I can’t recognize who i have been You go on spoiling Hey look it's happening without me you didn't even notice Of course it’s been happening all along permanent intervals As you become obsolete whoareyou? oh this place... i can’t concentrate Ibegin to gothrough another of that we havebeen. (I have been entirely patient but i know i can't trust myself with this again) nono not this time i'm locked inside here i have to staywith people who aren't here all the way picturesand faces on display people who aren't here all the way yes, everyone seems to be asleep
you dig in places til your fingers bleed she spreads herself wide open to let the insects in spread the infection where you spill your seed she leaves a trail of honey to show me where she’s been i can't remember what she came here for i can't remember much of anything anymore she's gone she's gone she's gone away a little mouth opened up inside yeah i was watching on the day she died we keep licking while the skin turns black cut along the length (but you can't get the feeling back) she's gone she's gone she's gone away are you still here?
maybe that was somebody else maybe i was somebody else I am sorry (for what it’s worth) if that means anything anymore. I think there’s something just wrong with me i have been wondering when did you know? you know, really know? no no no no no i don’t think that’s going to happen here you missed all that on the way out and remember i don’t want to remember anymore maybe i was somebody else? just go back to the idea of me go back to the idea of me none of this is happening WAIT WAKE BREATHE BELIEVE HEY YOU TELL YOURSELF oh and If I start to tell you anything please don’t pay attention. That’s not really me in there. I would never do that. just go back to the idea of me go back to that idea can you even hear me over here? can’t you feel it happening? everything absorbing liquid twitching forming something terrible the sores are gone and you can hardly tell now but that was someone else who isn’t here anymore none of this is happening hey, can you hear? it gets so lonely in here
i’m going back of course i am as if i ever had a choice back to what i always knew i was on the inside back to what i really am look at this pathetic place i made with little bits of sticks and hair and anything i found along the way and tell yourself you know you’re not really what you know you are you know? of course you do i think i may have even listened to you i think i may have even listened to you at the height of my demise break through the surface and breathe i am forgiven i am free i am a field on fire i am forgiven i am free i am a field on fire and oh my god i have missed you it has been so long i am stronger than i have ever been in my decline for now i know i know for certain shedding any burn motherfucker carry the carcass and throw it on pull up a chair and watch the flies come roaring out and will surround the entire world and blacken out the skies and every last one of you like a plague of locusts like an exit like an end like the end i am forgiven i am free i am a field on fire i am forgiven i am free i am a field on fire it's getting hard to know which side is the dream i can't tell if i am dreaming anymore i can't tell if i am dreaming anymore i can't tell if i am dreaming anymore i can't tell if i am dreaming anymore
*: originally subject to a mojibake bug, rendered as 3-SheÔÇÖs Gone Away.flac
(2017-07-21)